Stories of Mine

这一个早晨，天气晴朗，一屋子的人都在为自己的事情忙碌。
终于，新郎到了，他来迎娶今天出嫁的阿姨。
经过一番的礼仪，新郎终于启程，把阿姨去回去了。
我也随着兄弟们，浩浩荡荡走了。
转眼间，我回到了我的家。那家的规模挺大，是角头间。
忽然，屋外大棚了，棚里挂了一切旗帜。
我以为我去错了家，可是不是，所以硬着头皮走进去
我被通知，婆婆去世了，爸爸也去世了。
就几分钟后。。。。
我，我，我……… 该怎样反应？？

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这是几天前我做的一个梦，恶梦。
醒来以后，我很怕，很想打回家，可是。。我不想告诉妈妈，我有这样的一个梦
害怕的感觉，一直持续，还好后来跟朋友说了梦，希望梦，不会发生。
因为，其实叔叔就要结婚了，我不要！！
我知道，婆婆最后的心愿就是看到最后一个儿子，成家立室
因此，今天向把这个梦再写出来。
不是迷信，就是宁可信其有，不可信其无。^^

记得以前有一位朋友曾经这样说过 “我以为我上到advanced diploma，朋友就会越来越少，怎知还是有很多喝茶的机会”
现在，我想说，恭喜他。因为我的人缘不如他。
不知道为什么，我真的觉得自己的朋友少了。每次见面，废话连篇时，都是那一些人。我觉得自己无聊，但是一个人时，更无聊，更寂寞。
挂在网上一整天，只是跟几个人，寒暄几句，我没有很认真地想聊。
我好像没有了朋友。在朋友栏上，来来回回，无数次的重复，还是没有结果。
最后的最后，我看到了我的pendrive..
我想起，我有戏可以看。珠光宝气。
虽然没有太高的期望，但还是想看。或许，期望低了，换来的会是惊喜。
多么希望可以一直看到我睡着了时…
结束了。
没了。

这两天病了。病得五颜六色。
这是报应，疯狂的玩乐，享受午夜生活的后果
今天，我都没出门，原本以为可以去上课，怎知，我当时好爱睡，有点晕眩
所以，继续窝在床上。。
今天，终于看完《甜言蜜语》
我看了3次，终于看完了
很多时候，我们真的需要用心聆听。
这样无论你是不是个弱听者，你都可以听到对方想表达的。
当我看到19集时，真的好累，所以睡着了。
我没想过我可以在结局前这样停下来。
因为我开始视线模糊，头脑晕眩。
终于睡着了，结果就无法上课
现在又开始爱睡了，希望我可以一觉到天明
因为我发现好像很难
就如昨晚，我清醒到天明

A week past and it is Saturday night.. In my mind, it should be hanging out with friends.. To have a nice dinner, chit-chatting with each other, or might be clubbing.. And yet, i stay at home for the whole day. Hmm, forgotten.. Not really, i did go out without the outcome..

The 1st week of my last semester in TAR College has ended and the time passed extremely fast without my concern. It is just like the 1st day to come back to TarC in my mind, and yet the reality…
Actually, nothing special happen throughout the week. (Hopefully i have a good memory)
1st Day.. I attended the Contract Administrative II lecture, and we had been told there is 35% failure in CA I.. [myGOD, would i be one of them?? Confidence decreasing...]
2nd Day.. Attended PED lecture and tutorial.. This is the least Q (only 1 Q asked) i asked during the tutorial session as i dint have any preparation.. And still uncertain with the Chapter 3.. Consider havent start… But it’s going to pass up.. At night i also played badminton with my friends, all my body parts almost break into pieces during the next day
3rd Day.. I intended to attend the Project Management II lecture, but all my friends… Finally we had steamboat as our dinner…. [So fast, skip the class ady.. But i will attend the lecture if he immproved his teaching skill /style]
4th Day.. This is the 1st day we attended the tutorial session which we have to forn into assignment groups. Em, a classmate of mine told me to be in the same group. And yet at the 11th hour, he told me.. “I’d join XXX’s group, as she is better in this subject..” Hmm,yes,i scored a high mark when i was in her group. Yet, I just can say… 人望高处 i never blame him honestly as i really understand why does he doing so and he is someone who cares his result very much… Then, I’m behaving happy go luckly… I just want someone who can help and cooperate with me.. That’s all…
5th Day.. This is the 1st day to meet with the only new lecturer for this semester. Out of expectation, he isnt a serious man, but funny.. Yet, i just hope he could teach well as i have to attend his lecture on Saturday morning, 8am.. That’s why i dont want a dull lecturer. Something great was, he cancelled the saturday morning lecture due to some reason.. ^^

The time really passes so so so… FAST!!! This week, as my group member wants to rush and get the bonus marks for PED.. Then both of us rush for the Chapter 3.. I think it isnt that good, I was trying to tell her NO NO No.. But i failed.. So…. Finally we pass up and she said “Ms Liew said no bonus for this chapter…..” Nvm, luckily she is going to read through our work and as us to edit the weak parts… So i can still read through the chapter again and do properly….. But, to do the cash flow… Really…. Headache!!!

In addition, i watched 2 movies throughout the week, (within 3 days) Wednesday and Friday nights. I had not been to cinema since my last exam… and i missed a lot of movies… Haihz, 算了吧!! I’m so lazy to watch DVD. the movies i had watched were Eagle Eye and Connected (保持通话)
Eagle Eye : Em… I also dont know what it is talking about before enter the cinema.. But my friends said nice.. Then just bought the tickets and get into the cinema.. It was about the Ministry of Defence in USA.. Hmm, i believe there is such a hi-tech in their government, but is unknown to public.. What are they trying to do just to arrest the terrorists…
Connected : I never think it is a nice movie even i listen about its introduction from fm. And yet, it really doesnt catch my concern as i know the HongKie movies… I would only watch if  i like the actors/actresses..But since my friend said it is nice, and i felt like to watch it.. So we went to cinema again last night to watch it. Unexpectedly, there were some funny parts and action parts as well.. But, it is just like… too over!!! Extravaganza.. ~ But i think it is nice to relax ur mind..

Actually i have an appointment with my ex-classmate’s father to carry out an interview for my dissertation.. But, i so ker kiang!! Took the wrong route and finally delayed the time… And i knew her dad is so busy, so i asked her to postpone the time for me. Maybe, i would get the bad impression from her dad.. But, i was so fed up at that time and i dint think i could carry out a good interview with him… [Dissertation always brings me up and down!!] I think it may be on Monday….

Then.. I was wanted to have a hair cut… Finally i cut my hair… But, it seems like…. no difference!!!! hahahahahaa~~ But the hair stylist suggested me to do some changes on my hair… hhmmm, perm n dye.. I think i would dye one month later as i really planned to do so for quite some times after i noticed my hair is so dark!!!!

Then… I planned to have paper cut as well… To contribute sth to my dissertation.. Yet, Super Trio had occupied the whole afternoon time until evening… It was damn funny!!! Hahahhahahahahaaa~~ Then, i settle my dinner with a mee cup.. even i dont feel like to eat… But, i still took it…. because of LAZY!!!

Then, then, then…. I blog here…… ^^

It has been one week since i came back home for my holiday. My semester break started one and half week ago.. Once my holiday started, i had been to Port Dickson with my classmates and Genting Highlands with my aunts and grandma(wai po). After these, i planned to start my left assignments for this holiday before i come back for holiday. And yet, accidentally i have to come back earlier as my grandma went for vacation in Medan, Indonesia suddenly. Then my mum just urged me to come back.

Actually i really dislike someone to set up my time table or a to-do list for me especially when i have set up everything for myself. (Actually, i did told her that i wont be back that early right after the semester break starts, but it seems useless. She had forgotten everything!!)

Therefore, for the one week time at home, i went out for only 3 days, the rest of my time i stay at home doing nothing. I dont oppose her silently, but.. I really dont have any motivation to move myself. I sleep late in the midnight and wake up in the afternoon.. Actually i dont want this way of life, but i just couldnt control myself to sleep these much.

I have forgotten, the day i came back or right after the next day i came back, my grandma reached Malaysia. And, the actually assignment to me can be withdrawn immediately — to take care of home. I was quite annoyyed as i couldnt do anything for this holiday. The interviews with developers and contractors, i have to delay everything until the semester starts, when i go back to KL. Please dont ruin my plan!!!!!!!!!!
<<Maybe, i should think another way round.>>

I just managed to start the very first part of my cash flow and it is the easiest part for the whole chapter, when i see the further part, then… i start to get headache.

I really hate someone plans for me, as I even planned to have interview in Penang, but without car, I wont go as it is really troublesome to go by public transportssss… And, i dont think the time allow me to do so!!!
AAARrrrGGgggHHHhhh~~

之前一直盘算要写一篇关于家好月圆的blog，可是因为前几天都过得非常慵懒，所以… 不了了之。今天忽然想写一篇关于自己的post..

中午时，拿了妈妈的车去车厂修。安娣说，“你妈妈说你瘦了，可是我看你还是差不多。”
哈哈，其实你希望得到怎样的答案？！不过，原来，对于这些，我已经可以处之泰然了。心中没有任何起伏。

曾经，到朋友家中，他妈妈说，“你好像胖了，是吗？”当时，我，我真的不知该如何回答。我说不是，安娣会说什么呢？！最后，支支吾吾地，是。

曾经，阿姨只看了我半眼，斜视，就说，“你胖了！” 我的天，我知道，可是。。在还没正视我之前，你就这么说，应该很严重了。

这两次是我最为印象深刻的。当时虽然不会激动，可是就觉得很不好意思。
实习以后，不知不觉瘦了，虽然没有太大的改变。。（或许运动多了）
开始，我都没察觉，只是后来连身边的朋友都说，自己才注意到。
希望，以上的情况不会再出现。^^

It was once i hate the persons who smoke, and make the place smelly… None of my friends smoke when i was still mixing around with my high school friends often. Free of smelly air flow…
Yet, in my mind, i would drink rather than smoke. I think, smoking brings more hazard to our health.
I told myself i wont smoke throughout my life. And yet, it seems to be re-determine…
Slowly, i’m used with the friends smoking when we were yam cha-ing.. Even i still slip away when the smoke fly towards me.. But, at least, i’m not that resist on it. When i go out to yamcha without someone smoking, i would feel weird.. I dont know since when i feel so…
No long time ago, when i was rushing crazily on my assignments, projects and thesis… I was actually quite tension, things kept coming towards non-stop…. It is too much, and mounting up quickly. There was sth in my mind, cigarette…..
I felt like to smoke, suddenly i miss the smell of smoke… I was thinking, is it the stress would release when smoking?? I just want to breathe and have a break….. These were in my mind..
I was really shock by it, and wondering why would these came into my mind… and up to today, it still here. Sth terrible!!!
When the mind was still fresh with smoking, coincidently, my classmates were discussing on me when we went out for a break during lecture. “Would Yanqi smoke in future?” Even i dont get answer from them, but… I myself also couldnt confirm even i was answering NO!
Maybe, in the construction field, there are too many smokers.. Out of 10, there are 8 smokers. Construction field is so so so… stressful? I dont know, but most of the guys being taught to smoke when they attended training. Most of my male friends know smoking.
Another factor i think would influence me is —- Lots of KL gals smoking…
What the hell is that?!! Smokers everywhere…..
however, i still hope i wont start any cigarette throughout my life…

* I have been staying at home for the whole day. Walking in and out from my room to kitchen, toilet… So bored!! and, my back is so pain… Really need a massager.. but, i just did a little bit of my target… Couldnt finish the subject…. >.< Laziness~~ Shouldnt blame others, but myself…. *

这个星期就是考试周了，嗯，还没认真地开始准备。。缭乱的桌子，从赶论文到现在，依然缭乱。腾出的时间，献给了吃喝玩乐。上星期，我用了RM200来买东西跟吃自助餐。其实我很过意不去，可是。。钱已在指缝中流失。换来一件Walt Disney的T-shirt及帽子；一餐拼了老命去吃的自助餐Jogoya,Starhill…

i’m so so so… tired, just back from a late dinner after finished my class on 9pm….. Actually not really want to have that meal, but since my classmates were hungry then just fetch them there for the meal. Suddenly, i’m so down during the meal time. Maybe, sth upsetting me…

It was an announcement yesterday for the 2nd assignment of Contract Admin. I get 67 if not mistaken as i wasnt in class and went for badmindton ^^ I was told so, but dont really mind about that.. since it doesnt fail then it is ok to me…but i have a classmate who was copying other’s assignments even not mine, but he scores 70++++…. it is fined. Yet, he still could tell around proudly about himself… how could this happen???
I dont copy any of the model essays up to today… i write everything myself. Actually i feel like wanted to quarrel with him, but at last i controlled myself and stayed silence……

However, the assignments just finished for this sem and it is the last week of thie sem.. em, i never rush assignment until the last week. I’m really really.. tired, assignments, continuously… and i feel like i did nth then it comes to the end of the sem.. But when i look back, i actually learned sth, at least, now i know quite well of the routes in kl city centre, i went to local authorities… Just i never realised that, and kept hanging around…. then the time passed without my concern.

and next week is my exam ady… i dont happy even i went shopping just now.. i bought a cap n a t-shirt which cost me rm100.. i dont really want to buy, but i still went to pay at counter at last… hhhmmmm, it is undeniable to be moodless during period… haihz, my waist… so tired too….. i just want to sleep straight away, but.. all my things still in mess.. how to prepare exam???????